A little bit about me.

Hi, I'm Little Miss Typical.


I'm just like every girl my age, I'm typical. I'd like to be able to say that that means I'm boring and normal, but it's hard to feel like that sometimes. My life has been far than boring and normal. I know everyone goes on and on about how their lives are hard, and in reality some people exaggerate just a little bit, but life is hard.


I won't bore you with the details, I'm not here to complain about my life. I'm here to hopefully start a journey. Just like most people, I have body confidence issue, BIG STYLE issues. I really want to overcome these issues because their starting to take over every aspect of my life, and I mean it.


I live with my long term partner and we've been living together for maybe just under a year. In that time I have put on A LOT of weight. So I know you're going to roll your eyes at me, sigh, and think 'here we go' but I mean it. I went from a rather happy and health size 14-16 right up to a size 22. I'm disgusting.


At first, this dramatic weight change didn't bother me, and to be honest I didn't even notice it. However, one day I looked in the mirror and noticed the angry red stretch marks all over my body. I'm more stretch mark than I am a woman these days. But anyway, even though I wasn't happy with myself I got on with it, right up until a very close person to me made a hurtful and tactless comment about how I looked. It crushed me. Since then it has been eating away at me.


I have transformed from a fairly confident, social and happy girl to a quivering, antisocial and miserable bolder of a human. I can't look in the mirror any more, when I do I burst into tears. When I bathe I keep my eyes on the ceiling, when I get ready I wear the baggiest clothes I can find, I quit my job because it meant being seen by outsiders all day every day and now I can barely bring myself to leave the house. I hate myself.


So here is my space to tell my story and start my adventure, and I've got to tell you, it's scary. I don't really talk to anyone about how I feel about all this, so this is big for me. Please bare with me, and thank you for your patience.


Little Miss Typical